November 9, 1998 - November 11, 1998

Sorry for not updating last week. I know I promised I would stay on top of this, but I started a 2nd job, and Wednesday was my first day. To make up for my big letdown, I give you a double post this week, one of which happens to be my personal favorite in the whole journal.
-Ryan

November 9, 1998

"Ok, here is the day......hold on. I haven't written in the longest time!!!! Well letme update you. during campe I went out with this really hot girl named Alana. When camp ended we broke up. At camp I gave her her first french kiss!!!! I still talk ot her and her friends call me and tell me to ask her out because she likes me. I am in 8th grade. Katie hates me because she says I'm "GAY". so shes a bitch. i still talk to Kristen, Erin. Thats all. No Justine no Aubrey. I still talk to Alana. Lucien got kicked out of school because his permit expired because he's out of the district. I Regret EVERYTHING I said about every girl in this Diary!!!! Except Alana and Kristen. Justine was fat and so was Aubrey, Jeanine I didn't like at all amd Erom was a mistake. I was DESPERATE!!!! Mpt anymore. I'm smart and I'm not stupid anymore. Oh yeah Erin also. Bye!!!! Oh Yeah....Alana is in 7th grade."


November 11, 1998

"hey, Yesterday I slept over at BLAKE'S house and he moved in that house like 2 months ago and it has an elevator in it!!!! It's so cool!!!! Anyways Blake's mom left the house and so no one was there and so we got seperate blankets and put on the PLAYBOY CHANNEL and we jacked off and we put blankets over us so we couldn't see each other. Then we used Vaseline and I didn't cum because I didn't feel like it and like 30 minutes later his mom came in and we were so lucky that at that moment it was jsut a guy and a girl talking to each other so we were lucky. Blake said it was his first time getting caught. I hate school tomorrow, we didn't have school today because Veteren's day was today. Oh yeah, last MONDAY Ryan at some pot and it was his first time and he said it tasted good and that when he got high he was singing and stuff like that. Well i gotta go to sleep. OH SHIT!!!! I forgot I hae a test tomorrow in SOCIAL STUDIES!!!! SHIT!!!! Bye!!!"

August 1, 1998

August 1, 1998

I am at camp and it is like the 4th day and yesterday are 2 counselors (Todd and Jeff) and the other 10 kids (Brandon, Zack, Ryan, Daniel, another Daniel, Josh, some other kid we call assman, another Ryan, Adam, and Steve) we were all talking about how Zack doesn't do shit with his girlfriend all he does is say "HI" and "Bye" and they just never talk. So today our counselors got PISSED!!!! They were cussing at us like "Every FUCKING 5 MINUTES YOU GUYS ARE ALWAYS FUCKING AROUND!!!!" They went on for like 15 minutes!!!!

July 12, 1998

July 12, 1998

The movie "Small Soldiers" came out 2 days ago. That means it came out July 10. So July 10th I went to the movies with Lucien aAubrey and we went to see a "perfect murder" so we went to go buy the tickets and the cashier at the AMC wouldn't let us buy the ticket because it was RATED "R"!!!! So we asked a guy to buy us the tickets and he did!!!! He gave us the tickets and left. The cashier saw us so she made us refund the tickets. So we saw small soldiers at 7:20pm. So finally we are in the movie and I was rubbing her arm and her fingers and 20 minutes later she starts kissing my neck and up to my cheek and then my ear!!!! So 10 minutes later she does it again and then we start frenching and it ends off with a kiss!!!! Then I put my hand up her bra for like 10 minutes!!!! then we scam again finishing it off with a kiss!!!! Then she starts feeling my dick and shes trying to unloose the belt but she couldn't. So she just felt it on my pants. But I dont know if I wouldof wanted her to jack me off because when a girl jacks you off it makes it seem like your dick is smaller because when they are sucking it they can't suck it all the way because it will touch their throat and they will throw up like belimic people. So they figure it is big!!!! I dont know whatever!!!! And so today (july 12) I went to the Calabasas swimming center and I saw Jennifer and Renne which both have huge tits. So they were looking at my wallet and they took my money and put it in their top!!!! Both of them!!!! But I said no because I was going out with Aubrey. So they give the money back. So i was talking to Aubrey on the phone today and she told me how she doesn't want to loose me and so much of that crab and she was crying all because of Lucien!!!! I can't trust him anymore.

July 4-5, 1998

Hey everyone,
Just wanted to apologize for not staying on top of the blog. I realize that documenting Brian's teen angst is important and all, but sometimes life gets in the way what really matters. Anyway, I'm back, and will stay on top of this shit. And now, the saga continues.
-Ryan



July 4, 1998

"The fire works were stupid and small we were really away from them so it got boring. Dina came today and she only drank one beer and aubrey was not here today so I was really bored!!!! I really needed to talk to her. It was nothing important I just needed to talk to her. On AOL I was talking to Vivian and she said I couldn't cum  and that I have no pubic hair!!!! What a fucking Liar!!!! She also called Aubrey a slut for doing all that shit with her b/f and I said you are only a slut if u do that to other different people and u are not going out with them but she still called her a slut!!!! Oh well I guess I will talk to Aubrey tomorrow!!!!

July 5, 1998

Kaphir came over and he cut his hair!!!! It looks so much better. Aubrey was kinda mad at me but she didnt tell me. She told Lucien and Lucien told me she was mad because before we were going out she said I was more romantic and that I am not anymore so what the chode!!!! I don't know what I was doing before we were going out! I don't know!!!!

 

July 2, 1998 - July 3, 1998

This week I was going to do the usual single update, but after reading on I decided to give you guys July 3 as well. Its too fucking funny. I also decided to include one of Brian's art projects from 1998 also. - Ryan

WHERE ARE THE PARENTS?!



July 2, 1998
"Well It's been a long ass time and guess what?!!? Lucien is going with Erin!!! Seriously!!!! Then 2 weeks after they are still going out I go on A.O.L. That is when Erin is on!!!! Her screename is Rebel661. Then she tell me i'm fine and we start telling each other that we really like each other! And it is a bad thing that she is going out with Lucien. We talked about what we should when i called her and we decided we should go out behind his back! Although we never did, it was still fun. Then 1 week later Lucien and I called Erin to go to the movies and we went and she brought Aubrey with her! We went to see the movie "Can't Hardly Wait" and i sat at the end then Aubrey, Erin, and lastly Lucien. Erin was trying to give Lucien hints but he couldn't take them! She was practicly on him! He was tooooooo interested in Jennifer Love Hewitt's tits!!!!  Me on the other hand, had my hand IN Aubreys bra! Yep! i was feeling her tits and nipple and 1 week and a half later i asked her out and she said yes! And today 3 days later Lucien asked Aubrey if I could suck her tits and she said Yes! She also said that I could do whatever I want to her! She has gotten her tits sucked and she has given blows and shes been fingered! Oh well!"

July 3, 1998
"Now that I think, Justine is the ugliest girl in the world! She is fucking Chunky, Chunky!!!! Now i just like Aubrey, my girlfriend!!!! 4 days ago we were on the phone and I had to go so I said "bye!" Lucien then called her and told her everything about me liking Erin! (this was before we were going out!) She started crying and Lucien called me and told me that she never wants to speak to me again! So I called her and I explain everything. So she is happy again then i asked her after 2 hours "How do they write sex in a book?" She told me she had a book so she was  looking for it everywhere and then she found her moms DILDO!!!!! I told her to use it and she said "No!" so then we talked some more and she told me hos she would have sex with me and explained every little detail so well!!!!! Then later I told her to rub her pussy with her finger and she did!!!! And she wouldnt stop for like an hour and a half and she was making noises that came out by themselves like "uhh, oh, uhh" she said she didn't do them they just came out!!! While making those noises I cummed and it was the most i ever did!!!! Then another hour later I asked her to use the dildo and she did!!!! 2 times!!!! She says it hurt and that she wasn't bleeding so I told her she was born loose!!! Then she started shaking so i made fun of her!!!! Then it was 4:30 in the morning and we before we got off I asked her out!!! Coool!!! Oh yeah, we started talking on the phone at 8:00pm so we were on for 8 and a half hours, damn!!! The movie Can't Hardly Wait is so good!!!! I love it when Special K says "Why you gotta be messin with my flavor. DAMN!!!!!! COOL!!!!!!

 

 

 

 Brian titled this painting "Fairies Wear Boots" after his favorite Black Sabbath song. Notice, none of the fairies are wearing boots.

THE MAN. THE MYTH. THE LEGEND. BRIAN LEVY

Tuesday, May 26, 1998

"I never went under Jennifer's shirt and don't want to cause she's an ugly skank. I hate Justine even more. She's a fat ass ugly wanna be skank. So I didn't know who I liked for like 2 months. Then there was this 6th grade Erin  She REALLY liked me. I kinda liked her and we were always flirting with each other and then one day i grabbed her tit and she kneed me in the leg as hard as she could. I couldn't walk for a day. And plys she said she wouldn't hurt me if I did it! We still liked each other and then Kristina was being a bitch throwing lollipops at my head so I got a cookie and threw it at her my hardest and Erin got in the way and it hit her head! She turned around I got down and covered myself with a sweater and she was beatin' the shit out of me and I can't hit a girl so I just waited for her to stop! So 2 days later Jennifer grabbs my dick! I was like "what the chode!" I also said "I'll get you later!" So a week of grabbing each other passes by and then it's today. I'm in Spartan Service and there is a movie assembly and she is sitting right next to me! We both keep grabbing eachother and then I stop grabbing. She slows down to grabbing every 10 minutes. Then she says "ok! Free shot grab me right now." Of course I do it!" I don't take my hand off the whole rest of the 45 minutes! I just keep massaging them the whole time! Then school is over, we go to our bus and she sits next to me. We keep grabbing each other. Then we stop and i ask "Why did you break up with Garret?" and she says "Well I liked 2 other people" I said "but whenever some has a BF/or a GF they always like someone else. But anyways who were these two people?" She says "one is Alex  and the other is someone in our Spartan service class." I name everyone except me and she says "no." I saw my name and she said "yes!" "wasn't it obvious Brian?" And I said "I don't know?" It was obvious really! All my friends even said it! The thing is that she is so popular and this can make me popular too! But if I ask her out I'm scared she'll wanna give me a blow and i Would let her but girls expect cocks to be like 20 inches long which will happen when we are older! But i think i have an above average dick (in length!) cool!"

May ??, 1998

"Hi, Its monday and it's 10:20pm. I just finished watching the oscars. I just went to my mom (who was sleeping) and asked her if i can take a shower. She just said bye and I kept asking till she scrame as loud as she could and said "I;m sleeping RIGHT NOW!" I just went to my room and I just sat down. I have to go to sleep."

May ??, 1998

"My mom can be a real bitch sometimes. I reall like Erin. Ryan told her a long time ago that after Iceaoplex that I was really pissed because she barely talked to me and because Jimmy asked Erin out and she said yes. I was really mad after Iceoplex but Ryan didn't have to tell her that. But they broke up and I think she likes me. I know I like her. I really like her. But now that I think of it I like Justine too. I broke up with my girlfriend Lindsey. Actually she broke up with me. I was going out with her but she is so prudential (my way of saying "prude) but she really liked me so I would feel bad to dump her but she bumped me and said "its not your fault, its mine" and I asked her what she meant and she said "I'm going out with someone!" I was like "what the hell!" you tramp!"

"I just came out of Hebrew School and Janene said "if you don't scam with Justine I'm not giving you your toy
glasses" (she took my plastic sun glasses) she wouldnt give them back so after 10 minutes of chasing Janene around Hebrew School, i finally scammed with Justine! It was pretty cool but while i was going it I should have grabbed her tit! I think I like kissing better than scamming (what the fuck is the difference, brian?) I would probably like scamming better if I grabbed her tit or if it wasn't justine because she is fate and ugly!!!!! eeeeewwwww"

May ??, 1998

"I'm on the bus now, really bored have nothing to do. Today I have Hebrew School. I don;t think i want to go because this girl, Janene, who is really fucking fine and has 2 of the biggest tits (just kidding) I've ever seen (they are c but well formed. NICE). Well Janene dared me to scam with this girl. I've already kissed the girl alot of times. The last time i kissed her it was a very long time and right in the middle of our kiss, 2 parents turned around and saw us and my friend. Ryan. who saw the parents didn't tell me. So i was really embarraced. I saw the girl (by the way her name is Jen) or Jen at lunch again but right when the bell rang. Today on the bus I kept grabbing Martis tits because she wouldn't give me this writing thing. So the camera recorded it the bus driver saw it and I'm probably in deep fuckin' shit because the bus driver said he is gonna call my house and its sexual harrasment or whatever the crap they teach us. My mom is going to be spissed at me because they might kick me off the bus and my mom can't take me because she has work to do, she has to drive to school! One of my friends said that it probably won't happen but I'm so mad. She was grabbing my dick to, so fair is fair. I didn't want her to read this and I i'm not going to hit a girl. If it was a guy I would go beat the shit out of them if they didn't give it to me.

It's friday and i Didn't go to Hebrew school. I thought i was lucky that I didn't go but it turns out that i should have gone because Justine said to Ryan that he could feel her tits on skin! Maybe on Tuesday she'll let me because we both know for a fact that Justine likes me more. I would rather feel Janenene's + Janene is the finest girl i probably have ever seen (yeah right)! But she has a new boyfriend so we can't play truth or dare anymore. She was the main reason I played. I don't judge guys how they look but her boyfriend I am. He is so ugly and he is kind of fat and chuncky but that doesn't matter. What matters is that he is an UGLY piece of crap and he is so ugly! I'm just mad because she is not going with me. She even sold me friend she likes me. A little bit."

until next Wednesday...

May ??, 1998

"Hi! My mom is being a real bitch right now. I'm on the phone with my friends Jocy (who has huge tits!) and Lucien ( a guy not a girl) and my mom picks up the phone and starts saying "Get off the phone I need to use it!" And i tell her to get off so I can tell them myself to get off. But no she just keeps yelling and yelling until my friends get so annoyed that they hang up. I wear 2 watches on my left hand, one is my cool watch which has M&M's on it and the other watch is my good luck watch because lots of girls with big tits put it down their shirt (and bra!) and guess who takes the watch out? ME! I wonder what its like to be stoned? People always ask me if I'm stoned but I'm not! I don't even do drugs. I haven't even tried a cigar. Let me tell you something that happened. A girl put my watch down her shirt and i took it out. Next day I just kept grabbing her tits. At school that day another FINE girl with humungous and i mean HUMUNGOUS tits was going to do the watch thing but the belle rang and so I went to the bus (pussy). On the way to the buss she said on Monday she'll do it. Monday it didn't happen and I couldn't find her anywheres. So on Tuesday I saw her at lunch and the bell rang so we had to go to class. She said she tried to find me when I was also trying to look for her. On Wednesday again the bell rang when I found her. So tomorrow on Thursday its supposed to happen."

nobody listens. nobody cares. the diary of Brian Levy

On Sunday, September 26, 2010, Brian Levy, my band mate and good friend, asked if he could leave some stuff in my garage so we could load up some of our music equipment. Seeing as he was driving us and we needed space for amps and drums, i gladly allowed this, not knowing what kind of priceless treasure he would be leaving in my possession. He brought out a "treasure chest" containing many relics of his childhood and teen years, but one piece stood out the most...his pre teen diary.
"Check this shit out Ryan, its my 7th grade diary," Brian said. At first, I thought it was a joke, but upon further inspection, he was telling the truth. Written in many different colors and on dragon ball z paper, nothing could physically prepare me for the stories documented on these pages...these stories of sexual experimentation and growth, pre teen angst, drug and alcohol abuse, and coming of age, will forever haunt my memories.
The purpose of this blog isn't to poke fun at Brian, but rather to show the world the trials and tribulations that he overcame. We both felt that this diary was unearthed for a reason, and that these stories needed to be told to the public. I titled this blog nobody listens. nobody cares because that is just how he felt...having no one to turn to, he took to his diary.
Look forward to weekly updates as well as scans of the actual journal.